A little over a year ago, my eyes were opened one ordinary morning. The boys were lined up at the breakfast bar eating cereal and it is like the blinders fell off my eyes. They are getting so big. They were growing fast and I was missing a large part of it. Running a thriving business was getting the best of my energy. I was reading in the book of Haggai later that day and it further confirmed what I was already starting to see. Is now the time to dwell in paneled houses while this house lies desolate? Consider your ways. You have sown much, but harvest little; you eat, but there is not enough to be satisfied; and he who earns, earns wages to put into a purse with holes.
God was removing His hand of blessing on a provision that once housed His hand of blessing. He started frustrating my plans. The work of my hands was leaving me unsatisfied. The process to completely confirm He was asking me to fully quit took nearly two years. And Friday, July 5th, I came home.
It was a strange afternoon when it was done. Shane was out of the country. The boys were at the neighbors. I had a rare gift, the house all to myself. I felt lost at first. What do I do with myself? So I methodically started going from room to room, cleaning, fluffing, turning on lamps, lighting candles, and cultivating beauty in my little corner of the world. The boys came home and we had a southern dinner on the patio.
(all photography by Lulu Photography)
My heart is to cultivate this home, these hearts. It is my favorite place on earth to be. I re-sew the ripped furniture. I wipe down the baseboards with chipped paint. We pull weeds out of flower beds and cook good food in the kitchen. We'll become masters at creating the beauty and fun right here within these walls.
Obeying has surprised me with happiness. Sheer, flat out happiness. I cannot wipe the smile of my face.